As the pages turn..

I’m finally free from you. From all the lies and the bullshit you put me through. I can look at you now and not feel a damn thing. You don’t know how amazing this feels. I feel so..happy with myself. It’s like I know now that if I fall for someone, I can give them my all without any hesitations. Without me having to second guess them or even myself. It’s amazing how it just all of sudden hit me right now. I use to want to check up on you or want to talk to you but I just really don’t care anymore. And it’s not in a bad I don’t care anymore it’s more like I’m at peace with myself and it doesn’t matter what you’re doing because it doesn’t effect how I’m living type feel. For some reason I feel like I wanna love and be loved. I feel awesome! lol Random but.. that’s okay, I’m good. :)

(Source: quartertilherdreams)

The past couple of months have been a constant roller coaster ride and to be completely honest I don’t know if I want to get off of it yet. =] If you don’t already know, I’m in LA (whooo hooo) working at a studio in Burbank. It’s pretty dope 2 months in and they already have me mixing stuff so hopefully that’s a good sign. =] I also might get another opportunity to work at another studio and that studio is like..a dream to work in so hopefully if things go as planned I’ll get the chance to work for that one because that studio is more hip hop and r&b (where I really wanna be.) Other than the music stuff and not to sound like a complete loner but I haven’t really mad any real friends out here..Didn’t really realize that it is a lot harder to make friends when you’re not in a classroom. And the fact that I only work with 3 to 4 other people in a studio all day that don’t really go out that much, it sucks. I was really never the type to go out there and just be like “OH HEYYY! I’m Tasha! Let’s be friends!” It’s getting to the point to where I think I need to though..=/ Other than that, everything seems to be going so far so good. Can’t complain about much. Even though this chapter in my life is going somewhat slow, I know that soon it’ll begin to pick up and i will make it big. Just wait and see.

Lol it’s cute :) this is like her favorite song lol